| doomsday tmr |
[Nov. 19th, 2009|09:36 pm] |
the ccab starts tmr, i mean i dont know what to feel. apprehensive? anxious? excited?
i dont know why but i cant seem to garner that same enthusiasm i get when i meet the friendlets or like the hallelujah friends or SPCA or like 1ad1 or like stringers. hell i feel like i'm falling deeper into something i cant freaking get out of. it just bothers me that this is going to be like another OBS but its gonna suck because 'm not with people i know unlike 2 years ago when 3e9 was unlashing different personalities and friendships. this camp's gonna be like total sucktard-inducing cause i barely know like 5% of the people who's going. damn this is gonna be bad. but i hope tomorrow i will wake up with an open mind and an open heart. that i wont let this stone of fear keep me from tearing the walls of my comfort zone and daring to make a difference in my life and challenging myself.
i have started ranting and this is not good.
i miss so many people in my life but there just seems to be other committments we all have posing as an obstacle to meet and chill and gossip and love and laugh like we always used to.
i suddenly feel very alone.
i miss the friendlets when we just hung out at each others houses having nothing to do and just doing whatever we feel like in that split second.
i miss meryl chen when we just studied together and stargazed, hell. i am so sick and tired of my life that i dont mind studying again.
i miss the hallelujah people when we just went out and watched random movies and did random things. it was last year that we actually started getting closer.
i miss SPCA, holidays feel so retarded without you by my side and no DUA BEI MILO WALAU I NOT HAPPY SIA.
i miss you, the way we used to talk about everything and anything and laugh and cry and love but now i am so happy we're what we are. no explainations needed no memories to hold on to no tears to shed to love to share. no more, its just nothingness between us. and sad to say, i am grateful for that.
its been so long since i felt like i actually mattered.
i feel like the earth could just swallow me whole. |
|
|
| VICTORIA CHAN THUANG HUI |
[Nov. 13th, 2009|12:44 am] |
VICTORIA CHAN THUANG HUI.
 SORRY AH MUM ABIT BLUR AH.
you dont make so much NOISE i blogging about you for the whole stinking world to see.
Vic ah, you know how much i love you right.
you know i would be willing to wait outside in the rain barefoot to give you a brolly.
you know i would be willing to walk you to the busstop and wait for you mummy even though i very sleepy.
you know i would be willing to listen to you whine on and on and on and on and on and on about your incomplete iandr which is complete nao.
you know i would be willing to lose my voice over guitarhero just to let you sing the monotone parts.
you know i would be willing to make myself feel like a jukebox just for you.
you know i would be willing to show you all the hot guys i know for you to criticise and insult.
you know i would be willing to tell you all my eyecandies and crushes and my future boyfriend even if i knew he wouldnt be good enough for you.
you know i would be willing to eat a gooooood cup of FROYO with you. (froyo rockx)
you know i would be willing to be a house maid who foregoes golf just to off the light when youre doing IT. hehehhe horny time.
you know i love you ttmz.
vic ah we've been friends since forever. since i saw you like a tart in your mum;s shop going
MUMMY CAN I HAVE SOME MONEY.
and i swear i did not make that up. i lurbezxz eu veri muchoxz.
and hello, woman can you plan sleepover at yours soon.
a totally kick ass one that will blow me away, wooooooooooooooo.
i'm sure you did totally awesome on your interview today hehehe. i cannot wait to see you again.
walau i very tired vic. i going to sleep soon, i hope you dream of me like i going to dream of you.
|
|
|
| i havent blogged in so long. |
[Nov. 9th, 2009|12:12 am] |
So many things have happened over the past few days. i shant need to elaborate. oh all i can say is 'm pretty excited that pw is gonna finish soon, like in less than 12 hours which mean i have to sleep soon.
and all the camps coming out, gonna be an absolut blast.
i am so tired nao, i'm staying awake on lethargy. oh what can i say i love icecream sundays with my favourite poo, and becky! my birthday is next month. i reallllly want a new ipod and a camera.
this post has been really random, and oh i think 'm getting uglier every day. |
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
packagedlove's journal
confused
cheerful
depressed